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Sept. 28,2009 12:37 PM

My heart was jumping for joy when the electricity came up last night. Unfortunately, it faded when I learned that the Internet was still down. I tried to troubleshoot but failed. So to keep me company, I’ve watched 2 movies and Episode 12 S2 of True Blood. I called the technical support hot line this morning and learned that there was a problem within the base station. They advised me to check the connection within 24 hours. 24 HOURS?! You gotta be kiddin me!

To take my mind off the connection problems, I started cleaning the house, replaced the curtains, bed sheet and pillow cases. I even sorted the movies from 500G black book. I was about to move to the Music folder when I noticed that there’s still no connection. I called the technical hot line again. Same shit. Problem with the base station blah blah blah. I just need to know the ETTR. Darnit. Now I’m stuck with all those pending tasks online that I need to do before I leave for Davao on Thursday. And to make things worse, the house help had informed me that she’s going to leave soon. Great! just fucking great. She was suppose to take the day off last Saturday but she was unable to leave because of the bad weather. Now her husband was furious and convinced her to go home for good. Freakin bastard. She told me she doesn’t want to leave yet because she really need a job to pay their expenses and debt. I guess her husband was not thinking at all. Stupid.

Now I got A LOT on mind — First, I haven’t reported to work in the last 2 days because of the weather, and I’m not sure if I can tomorrow (please don’t rain); Second, no Internet connection; Third, pending tasks online that I need to do; Fourth, the house help is going to leave, just 2 two days before my Davao gig. Shit.

Sept. 27, 2009 – 2:45pm * SM Marilao Foodcourt

It was one hell of a day yesterday. I got out of the office at 6am, not knowing it has been raining all night. My mom and dad was kind enough to fetch and drop me off to the jeep terminal in Monumento so I could go home early. After the long jeepney ride, I took a short tricycle trip and them I was home. The streets were already flooded which is a sign that it rained hard the night before. Good thing, I got home safely, even though my pants were soaking wet. I got a good long sleep that afternoon because it was cold, not aware that the height of the storm was already happening. I woke up around 5pm and discovered the power was already out. I realized that the FIL and the househelp were so busy trying to keep the water out of the house. Hubby arrived 30 minutes after without his motorcycle with him. He had to leave it somewhere (friend’s house) because according to him, it was impossible to cross the road with water up to his waist. And as for me, there’s no way I could possibly go to work. I mean, I wanted to but it was impossible. I send a couple of text messages to my officemate because I don’t have a stable signal on my phone that would last a decent conversation. Great! I had to stay home with no electricity. I had problems sleeping that night because I slept the whole freaking afternoon. And again, since there’s no electricity, I had to rely on my music player to keep me company. Thank God for Ipods. I was practically awake the whole night with nothing to do. I couldnt take off the earphones because the night was still and somewhat creepy. Pitch black and eerie silence was everywhere. I tried to focus on the songs but I can’t help but glance on my phone watch. 11pm… 11:34pm… 12:05am.. 1:09am.. 2:35am… 3:03am.. 3:33am.. 4:05am.. 5:05am. The waiting is killing me. I got up at 5:15am and fixed myself a bowl of cereal. The morning was silent. Still no electricity. Dammit. I took my accoustic bass and jammed Vampire’s jive with my now low batt ipod. Great. I took a quick nap after that, had lunch and took a bath. Still no electricity. Grrr. So I gathered my things and went to the nearby mall because I know that had wifi access there. I withdraw money first and bought a Smart sim because my freakin Sum sim was dead since the night before.

Unfortunately, the people who were in charge of the wifi access were not there. So f*ckin great huh. Now I’m down with my pen and paper for now. Not connected makes me feel isolated. Hubby and the kiddo caught me staring at the paper on the table at the food court area. Argh. I was so frustrated. Hubby suggested that we have dinner and walk around the mall. Yeah, it’s his way to make me forget what’s happening. We ate at Pizza hut and then I bought things I need for my Davao trip.

Power was back after an hour when we got home. We got a total of 3 power failures before 9pm and the stable power was back – finally at 9:45pm. Unfortunately, the Internet was still down. Most likely, problem with the access provider. Oh yeah, I did’nt report to work (again) because we still had no transportation because of the flood.This weekend has been an total waste. I hope I could have my connection by tomorrow — or else!

Today I’ve done something beyond my limitations.
I know it’s my choice and I don’t regret it.
No guilty feeling. Just plain happiness.
What I felt was completely different.
Warm. Excitement. Thrilled that left me wanting more.
It’s like someone came and patch a hole in my life.
No exact words are enough to describe this.
All I know is that I want you more.

9.24.09 11:30PM

Felicidades Avuelito +Papang. You’re always in our hearts.

Fate brought us together but still I ask, why now?
Why not, six or seven years ago?
In time, I’ve proven that…
“There’s no happen endings, only happy moments.”
Is this one of them?
If it is, I don’t want it to go away.

The thought of you feels a chill inside,
and sends a smile on my face,
Time has been the enemy,
for it always pass too soon and you would leave again.
Do you really want to leave?
Or you just need to.

I look forward to be with you,
but days are like forever.
Few trusted people knows how I feel.
But on this case, it’s just you and me.
Part of me wants you. But why do I want you?
Maybe because, I’m falling slowly…

1:53 AM 9/18/2009

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way..

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

Last weekend, I replaced the curtains, bed sheet and pillow cases in the bed room. I noticed that that room is beginning to be a little crowded. I mean, with all he stuff we have, it’s beginning to consume all the free accessible space left. I think I really need to re-decorate the room asap. I plan to move the bed to the other side of the room and put mounts there for the television. It used be enough to save more space for other things like, a little side table beside the bed. Hmmm.. Let’s see.

Felicidades Avuelita +Mamang. You’re always in our hearts.

I was able to talk to my mom this morning and she said they’re going at my granny’s place because it’s her birthday today. I told her that I can’t make it because I have work at night and our superior advised us not to leave from work this week. I asked how were my sister’s are doing. Youngest is currently working and the other sister is so busy that she always comes in late at night. My mom said that zits are started to come out from my sister face again. I advised her to get Acneticin because it a oral acne solution that might help her prevent zits. Hope it’ll work for her.

It’s been months since I removed the flooring in our bed room. Pests already ate most of the wood finish that’s why I removed everything. Besides, it’s starting to look unpleasant plus the odor was irritating. I suggested a white ceramic tiles finish for the bedroom to make the room more lighter and spacious. Dark colors makes it more less spacious and the atmosphere is dull. We plan to have those tiles this Christmas, hopefully if we have enough money.